Confession

Alright, I admit it, I am pregnant! Today I am 14 weeks 4 days. I kept the news under pretty tight wraps until over 13 weeks. This has been a scary pregnancy and I didn't want to put myself through the agony of telling anyone I had miscarried. I'll explain: at about 6 weeks, I was sitting between ward conferences when I felt something similar to when my water broke with Carson. I rushed to the bathroom to find that I was experiencing severe bleeding. After hurrying home and receiving a BEAUTIFUL priesthood blessing, I was sad, but felt okay about everything. I called my doctor and was told to take it easy and pay attention to the bleeding. "Check for clots and tissue". Clots and tissue never came, and the bleeding eventually stopped. I figured time would tell if I had lost the baby. I decided to take a pregnancy test the following Friday and sure enough, that second little line, was READILY there. The following Wednesday (a week and half later), I had a doctors appointment. He did an ultrasound and there was a little bean with a good heartbeat. Blessings! I then had some pretty good spotting two weeks later. I made it a matter of faith at this point, prayed and hoped for the best, and once again, it stopped. At 13 and a half weeks, I had another doctors appointment whereat he found a strong little heartbeat. He didn't even have to move the sonogram thingy around at all! That made me feel really hopeful. So with all that said, we are THRILLED for baby number two. I have no clue what we are having because this pregnancy has been SO different. Here are a few of the ways:

- Heartburn started WAY sooner than last time
- I got sicker sooner, and it has lasted longer, but it hasn't been quite as bad
- I have been able to somewhat control the nausea with food...uh oh
- The breakouts started sooner, but have lightened up a bit, whereas last time they just got worse and worse
- I am WAY more tired. If I don't get 10 hours of sleep a night, I can't function
- My uterus has been more tender. Last time I didn't feel it at all
- That whole bleeding thing...
- I am not necessarily emotional, but I cry at EVERYTHING remotely touching.

You get the picture. I do need to thank a few people (who did know of my condition) for their care and willingness to step in and help at any time. They have truly been angels. Jess, Emily, Mom; I love you!